I look around at the world around me an it looks black and white no color or light no sound. Everyone having a good time rather with friends families or mates. I say to myself why can't i be happy like thems, what iam missing? I try to be a nice person try to fit in but only to get kick out or they move away from me. I can't really go outside bad neighborhood gangs and ghetto folks all around, always stuck inside the house surround to four walls im jealous of others an wish i had what they have but its not my right I can't blame others for something that is my fault. Been in a deep depression with no way out not wanting to live for this world is a cruel one always has been alway will be. I really don't know what to do anymore.... Some say to grow up and out get some fresh air others say im better off.....But the one thing I need right now is...